Last night’s episode was extremely hard for me to watch. I was completely out of my element, fighting a battle that would have no winner. I had no interest in having a sit-down to hash things out with Kenya Bell, but after much coaxing from Evelyn, Suzie and the producers, I gave in. Clearly, I was uncomfortable with the situation and made sure I stayed one step ahead of Kenya and her kitten heels - or removal thereof. I am proud to say that I am not a fighter, but must admit that I work really hard to keep myself under control. I am not perfect and can be pushed to my limit. However, in this situation, I find the drama silly and unimportant in my real life and therefore, act and react accordingly.
I am not proud of the fact that I told Evelyn about Kenya saying she was loose. Unfortunately, that was one of my lower moments in which I got sucked in and played Kenya’s game. There are, however, two distinct differences between Kenya and myself in this particular situation. First, my statements were true and I had back-up to prove it. And second, I don’t take pleasure in seeing someone take heat. I don’t get off on that type of thing and am saddened by those who do. So to borrow a phrase from Evelyn, clearly “I AM NOT ABOUT THIS LIFE”.
